"i guess it comes down to a simple choice, get busy living or get busy dying."

- the great escape by boys like girls
 
WEDNESDAY, 20TH NOVEMBER: Because we're not stuck with old and boring teachers, we're being taken back into town for a night out. Considering you don't do anything rebellious, well, we know you will, just don't get caught okay?
 
Happiness.
 
The feeling was pretty much alien to me now, everyone else seemed to be happy: Yuri had Mr. Holden - which was cute that she thought she could hide it from me -, Myra had whoever she was with now ( plus friends ), Esti at least had people to talk to about her problems but then there was me.
 
I didn't have anyone.
 
I had Daniel but he was being so distant because of 'T' team stuff and anyone else that I talked to was just out of convenience or out of need for something. I was all alone and I had just brought it all upon myself.
 
If I couldn't be happy: I wasn't going to let others.
 
Promptly, I pulled out my phone as I sat down on my motel bed, dialing a number I wouldn't call unless I needed something, desperately.
 
"Hello?" Harlow Lane's judgmental and refined tone of voice answered.
 
"I need your help Harlow, just listen and don't ask questions, this will benefit both of us," I told her quickly in an all-business tone of voice.
 
"I'm listening but hurry up, I have things to do."
 
"Well, cancel those things, you need to drive up here and get me some things," I began speaking the details of what one could say 'prank'.
 
One hour later, I saw Harlow's black car pull into the parking lot of the motel. Impatiently, she got out of the car and waited for me. I walked down to her and without a word, motioned her to follow me.
 
"Where are we going?" She asked me, seemingly annoyed.
 
"Shut up and just follow me." I led her to the room where Esti, Yuri, Myra and Stephanie were staying.
 
"They're all out," I said leaning against the wall, "You can pick locks right?"
 
"Of course I can," She huffed, starting to do so.
 
After around five minutes, she managed to get the door open. We quickly walked inside;
 
"Did you get the stuff I asked you to?" I asked her as she passed me her bag.
 
"Yes," She rolled her eyes, "It's all there."
 
I pulled a pill bottle of Ecstasy pills from the bag and walked over to where Myra's pill bottle was sitting. Hastily, I switched her pills with the ecstasy, making sure she was in for a "fun" night.
 
After that Harlow and I left the room, leaving it like we had came upon it.
 
I couldn't wait to see everyone crumble and fall.

- everyday by akb48
 
MONDAY, NOVEMBER 18TH: What would our school year be without some sort of trip? Accompanied by Mr. Holden and Miss. Sharp, we're going to all stay in a little motel that's around 20 minutes away from Vegas. If it wasn't obvious, everyone's sneaking out to some casino's so make sure you have a fake I.D handy.
 
A week long school vacation really did seem like a complete dream, I mean, an entire week to spend with Carter was pretty much bliss, well it would be if Charlotte 'pretty preppy art teacher' Sharp wasn't breathing down his neck every two minutes, I barely got to see him anymore.
 
I fixed my hair and adjusted my studded headband as I walked up to the room that Carter and Miss Sharp were sharing, I had a plan to get rid of Miss. Sharp for at least a while so I could talk to Carter.
 
I took a deep breath, knocking on the door of the motel room. Miss. Sharp opened the door with a smile, "Oh Yuri," I could see Carter's head pop up in the background as he smiled at me, "What are you doing here?"
 
"I-I think that some of the others went into town without permission," I said with an innocent tone, "I'm worried for them."
 
Miss. Sharp let out an annoyed sigh, "I'll go get them," She said, "I'll be back in a hour or two, thank you for telling me Yuri."
 
And with that, the leggy blonde woman made her way to her car.
 
"No one's actually done that have they?" Carter chuckled as he hugged me.
 
I closed the door to the room so no one could see us, I just wanted alone time with the man that I loved.
 
"They might've but maybe not," I chuckled, giving him a quick kiss.
 
"It's good to see you in private, Charlotte's been clinging onto me of late," He frowned.
 
"I've noticed," I frowned.
 
"You're still my number one girl Yuri," He smiled, "I love you."
 
"I love you too," I grinned.
 
We ended up sitting on his bed, just cuddling and talking, it was perfect, even if it was just for a while.
 
"I have something to tell you," I mumbled against him.
 
"What is it?" He asked, kissing my forehead.
 
"I kind of told Esti about us two," I muttered.
 
"You what?!" He said shocked.
 
"She already pretty much knew!" I told him hastily.
 
"What if you two fight and she tells people?" He asked, "Huh?"
 
"We won't!" I assured, kissing him quickly, "Just calm down, everything will be okay, I promise."
 
I felt my phone beep and I took a look at the text:
 
"Be careful what you say about promises, they're easy to break, just like hearts - T".

- learn to fly by the foo fighters.
 
FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 15TH: Happy birthday to who? Happy birthday to Yuri! It may or may not have been her choice to host a party, but there's a party at her house. Try your best not to trash the place but if you do, have fun in the process.
 
I never planned initially to go to Yuri's party but Stephanie being just herself, managed to convince me to actually go, plus I didn't exactly hate Yuri, she just was kind of grouped in with the whole, T, thing meaning it was my job to make her life as hard as possible.
 
I sighed as I walked into Yuri's large house where there was a large amount of people from our school year grinding against each other and drinking. The stench of alcohol and sweat was really starting to become a familiar scent and it disgusted me.
 
Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Myra and Esti dancing together while Yuri just stood, eyes glued to her phone, probably texting Mr. Holden, it was cute that she thought she could keep it a secret. I made my way over to Stephanie who was drinking a martini and speaking to another refined looking tall girl.
 
"Jess!" Stephanie squealed loudly, "I want you too meet someone, This is Harlow Lane, she's the newest addition to the team."
 
The tall girl looked down at me with an expecting look, "You're Jessica? You're not at all like I expected," She told me with a 'hmph'.
 
"I'd love to tell you the same but I didn't even know that you existed," I rolled my eyes at her lightly.
 
She looked down at her phone, ignoring anything else that I may of had to say but I had to ask her something; "Why are you even joining our little team anyway?"
 
Harlow scoffed at me, "Travis Harris," She scoffed.
 
"What the hell does that idiot have to do with any of this?" I rolled my eyes, looking around for alcohol.
 
"Watch your mouth!" The girl snapped at me, "I love that guy but he's too hung up on that Myra b*tch, I'm just here to mess her up."
 
"Well you better be in it for the long haul then," I rolled my eyes.
 
"Guys, stop with the hostility," Stephanie said putting a hand on each of our arms, "We don't need to have fighting between us."
 
"Fine," I muttered, walking off to go find Daniel, who I had not seen lately.
 
I found him standing, drinking a beer with Dean, who looked at me with smirk, "Well, hello there Jess, what do you need?"
 
"Nothing from you," I rolled my eyes turning to Daniel, "Hey," I smiled at me, kissing him quick.
 
He smiled at me, "Hey Jessie."
 
"You've been really busy lately," I mumbled, taking a drink of his beer, "Why?"
 
"Just you know, things to do with the T stuff," He shrugged, "I keep trying to make time for you Jess but it's hard."
 
"I know just, I miss you," I sighed.
 
"I miss you too," He said before his phone went off, after taking one glance, he sighed, "I have to go."
 
He promptly left after giving me a kiss but I just hoped that he would try to make time for me.
 
But you know what they say about hope, it breeds eternal misery.

Created in the Polyvore iPhone app. http://www.polyvore.com/iPhone
 
Everything was just starting to get more stressful. School work was starting to get hectic, The 'T' texts were getting more frequent and everyone was just acting crazy, everyone was getting more suspicious and to make it worse, my parents were coming back from Korea to visit me.
 
Luckily, Carter was keeping pretty sane, despite the fact that we couldn't have any real public dates because well, he was my teacher and all but that was okay, at least I saw him everyday even if it was just in school.
 
As we were having the bake sale, I could tell that Esti was freaking out about the whole 'having her innocence' ruined thing so I did my best to comfort her but I don't think that it really worked, she needed time to sort things out by herself.
 
Halfway through selling things at the bake sale, I excused myself by telling Esti and Myra I had a migraine but really, I just wanted to go see Carter. When I reached his classroom though, he seemed a bit distracted as he spoke to me.
 
"Are you sure that there's nothing wrong?" I asked, sitting on top of one of the classroom's desks.
 
He sighed, "It's just..nothing really."
 
"If it's nothing, you would be acting normal, it's obvious that there's something on your mind."
 
"Well, if you must know, Miss. Sharp, or well, Charlotte, asked me out on a date."
 
"And why is that a problem? You said no right," I assumed.
 
"I told her that I would think about it," He said, filing through tests.
 
"What!?" I said shocked, "Why?!"
 
"Calm down," He told me, "Just as a front, I don't actually like her."
 
"Sure, whatever," I rolled my eyes.
 
"I'm being honest, I'll tell her yes but only to look less suspicious okay Yuri?" He said softly, hugging me from behind.
 
"Only to look less suspicious?" I made sure.
 
"Of course," He said letting go of me as the door suddenly opened.
 
Inside walked Miss. Sharp, tall, blonde, beautiful Miss. Sharp, who, luckily, didn't see us hugging.
 
"Oh, hello Yuri," She smiled brightly, tossing back her long blonde hair.
 
"Hi Miss. Sharp," I said with a polite tone, "I should be going back to the bake sale," I told her, hastily, making my way to the door.
 
"Oh yes, I forgot the bake sale was today," She giggled, "Save me a cupcake, Mr. Holden and I have some things to discuss."
 
The woman's sweetness made me absolutely sick to my stomach.
 
As I left the room, I received a 'T' text, telling me to go to the woods but really, I couldn't care less anymore.
 
I just wanted it all over.

@expiredsunshine
 
I walked into Katia's party alongside Stephanie, whom I had grown close to due to the whole 'us both being on the 'T' team thing'. I had grown tired of going to parties but I had to go otherwise, if anything happened, I'd be a suspect since no one had seen me and well, almost everyone goes to all the parties that are thrown so I'd be a nobody if I didn't.

"You okay?" Stephanie asked me as she pulled me over to the drinks table, eager on getting some alcohol down her throat.

I nodded, immediately picking up a can of beer, opening it promptly before pouring the drink down my throat, I needed to loosen up.

Stephanie on the other hand just pick up a cup of vodka and took a small sip, "Don't be getting too drunk," She smiled jokingly, ruffling my hair lightly before turning serious, "No, seriously, we don't want any slip-ups."

"I know, I know," I muttered, fixing my headband.

Eventually, Stephanie had dumped me to go and flirt with some guys who she had her eye on, leaving me with Katia who had insisted on dragging me up to one of the rooms because she thought I was too drunk, I wasn't even drunk in the slightest but she had insisted.

"I'm not even drunk, why did you force me up here?" I asked her confused.

"Just because I have to do something and you're the only one I trust," She said, looking nervous.

Uh, trusting me has proven to be a bad move, ask anybody.

"Um, what is it?" I asked her, just wanting to leave.

Without a word, she leaned forward, kissing me gently which just felt wrong, I had a boyfriend whom I loved very much and this was legitimate cheating.

I pulled away hastily but not before I saw a flash go off. Immediately, I stormed out of the room to face a smirking Dean.

Dear god, I hate him so much.

"Well, I never pegged you for someone who's into girls, Does Daniel know about this?" He teased.

"Shut the f*ck up Dean," I rolled my eyes, "She came onto me."

"Oh really?" He asked, flashing the picture of the kiss on his phone.

"Just delete it!" I snapped, trying to grab the phone from him.

"Oh no, you now do what I say, when I say it or I send this to your precious little lover okay?"

"You wouldn't." I warned.

"Oh I would," He chuckled, "Now, first order of business, go spark up a fight with that annoying ex-friend of yours."

"What one? They're like all annoying." I asked, being judgmental little me.

"The first one you find," He said ruffling my hair, "Go go now."

I sighed, going out to the back of the house to have a cigarette, surprisingly, I was the only one there. That was until someone else came out.

"Oh," I could tell it was Myra's voice straight away, "I didn't realize you were here."

"I didn't realize you were either, and I was having fun until I knew you were."

@brok3nwiings This is like the worst set ever.
But I'm tired now.
Can you find some AU plots if it isn't too much to ask?

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- 99 biker friends by bowling for soup.
 
FRIDAY, 8TH NOVEMBER: Since we're all seniors, our year is going to be filled with school events to make this year one to remember, so to kick it off, our school's holding a winter dance. Grab your most elegant dress, and cute a guy to match and make sure you're on nothing but your best behaviour. You never know who's watching right?
 
I didn't imagine that I'd be spending the night of my winter dance sitting in the waiting room of a hospital. After we'd gotten the news that Myra's little sister had been hit by a car, we'd all rushed over to the hospital where she was. Myra was in the hospital room where her younger sister was resting, Esti was sitting in a seat across from me playing with the material of her dress and I was just aimlessly looking around the posters about good health that were all over the walls. Jessica was sick so claimed she couldn't come to the dance but I wasn't sure if I believed her.
 
Myra re-entered the hallway with a sad expression painted upon her face, I don't really blame her though.
 
"How is she doing?" I asked her as she sat down in one of the uncomfortable, white chairs.
 
"She just got hit by a car, how do you think?" She snapped before softening, "She's still really hurt but the doctors say she'll make a full recovery."
 
"That's at least good then," I told her with a small smile, trying to cheer her up in at least the slightest.
 
"Do you guys think 'T' had something to do with it?" Esti asked in a quiet voice.
 
"I'm not doubting it...." Myra trailed off.
 
"But are they really sick enough to run over a freaking child?" Esti asked.
 
"They killed two of our friends; of course they are," I rolled my eyes.
 
"I guess you're right," Esti bit her lip.
 
"Do you guys think Jess, you know, has something to do with this?" Esti asked again.
 
"Maybe," I shrugged, "I mean, she's been our friend for years, why would she do it?"
 
"I don't know," Myra bit her lip, "I don't think so anyway, I think Daniel's using her and the fact she's clueless to what he's doing."
 
Soon enough, it was time for us to go home from the hospital and get some well deserved rest, Esti and Myra had gotten rides home from their parents but me? Oh no.
 
I was going back to my teacher's apartment with him to spend the night there, it was a habit of mine that was forming.
 
"Are you alright?" Carter, or Mr. Holden as he was more commonly known, asked me worried.
 
"Yeah, I'm fine it was Myra's sister that was hurt not me," I told him, giving his hand a reassuring squeeze as I sat down on the couch of his apartment, wearing his over-sized shirt.
 
"I'm glad," He said, pulling me closer to him, "Not that she was hurt of course, just that you weren't."
 
"Yeah, me too," I sighed.
 
I felt my phone buzz on the couch so I looked down to see the text from my infamous unknown enemy, 'Lucky you, Some girls do homework and you? You do the teacher.'

- countryside life by n4 ( hyomin, areum, jiyeon + eunjung )
 
I think I actually might write something today.

- punk rock 101 by bowling for soup.
 
i'll start in the comments c: